Monday, January 4, 2010


3 When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers, The moon and the stars, which You have ordained, 4 What is man that You are mindful of him, And the son of man that You visit him? 5 For You have made him a little lower than the angels, And You have crowned him with glory and honor” (Psalm 8: 3-5).

I am writing this post not to bring you down or discourage you. I am writing it to encourage you and hopefully build you up. You see, I don’t want you to dig the same trench that I have dug for myself; I don’t want you to make the same mistakes. I am not perfect but I am feeble without God. I came to this place, away from home, thinking that God had brought my husband and me here and once we got here I began to sink away into myself. I could not feel God anymore. But then again the Christian walk is not a feeling.

My husband and I went out looking for a church we could call our new home church but we found no place that we felt we could fit in. I compared my old home church to these new ones we encountered and the new ones always came short. Of course they would; they are not home, I would think to myself. The anger and resentment began to build inside me, towards my surroundings, towards God for bringing us to this place. I began down the awful “woe is me” path. This path is a never ending hill of emotion and struggle. Who could I blame for feeling like this but God? He had made me feel this way because He had brought us here. I felt cold, like I was drowning inside myself. The people I cared about so much were so far away. I was suffocating myself letting myself feel lonely. Did you catch that people? I said “I made myself feel lonely.” I cried for God and got no answer. I demanded to know why He had just left us here if he had led us here. I felt like my world was purposeless, I had never felt so helpless. I spent my days at home, wondering when I was going to get a job so I could feel useful again. I thought I had reached that point of brokenness. And then…it happened. I felt like someone had popped me upside the head, like a light just literally turned on inside my head. Oh my goodness, I thought to myself, I am actually so hungry for God. This thing I had been praying for for months was actually coming true! I prayed everyday as far back as I can remember that I wanted this insatiable thirst for God…and here it is! I am finally insatiably thirsty for God and I don’t want it to end.

I heard a song a couple of days ago, I forget which one, but it seriously made me think and realize something. Are you ready for this, people? I’m about to give it to you…It’s not about you! I say this with love and respect. I am saying this because, like I said before, I don’t want you to sink into the same mire that I sank into; the mire of “me, myself, and I.” Don’t get me wrong, God loves you. If you ever doubt that read John 3:16 again and again and again until you picture and see Jesus Christ hanging on that cross…until you picture Jesus taking a whipping and beating…until you picture the same God that lovingly formed you with His hands bearing your sin…for you! My pastor once said “He is with me, He is for me, but it’s not all about me.” I didn’t really understand that until recently.

I am challenging you, brothers and sisters in Christ, to get off the couch and be the light that God calls us to be! “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven” (Matthew 5:16). “Shine your light and let the whole world see, for the glory of the risen King, Jesus!” Shine Jesus’s love into peoples’ lives. God will never give us more than we can handle, but how much more is He going to give us, to allow us to handle, if all we can handle is spending the day on the sofa, watching television. He gives us what we need; He gave us our talents, our abilities, our spiritual gifts, and most importantly, He gave Himself. He gave

us the Holy Spirit. We have the God of the universe behind us! We are His vessels. How can we experience the love and work of Christ when we are sitting on the sidelines of life? The Christian walk does not begin when you walk into church on Sundays nor does it end when you walk out those doors. It is a lifestyle…worshipping God is a daily lifestyle.

I urge you, therefore, brothers and sisters in Christ (as the Apostle Paul would say), go do something. I sat on the sideline and focused on myself. I focused on why God was not helping me and why He wasn’t focusing on my needs. God is not concerned with your comfort level, as my pastor once said. He wants to shape and mold you into the person He knows you can be. Sometimes the molding is painful but the outcome is grand. God is not a pushover, but I will tell you one thing God is, He is faithful.

He will never forget you or forsake you. Even when all is quiet He is working. And most of all it is all for Him, not for you, for Him, for others, for His glory.

Start with something small if you like. Do at least one random act of kindness each day. Get plugged into your church. Join a small group; meet with other Christians and grow in fellowship. Most importantly, talk to God, ask for guidance and discernment. Let the Holy Spirit lead you and ultimately trust in Him. Read His Word, pray and talk to God…you can do it anytime you want! Most importantly, never forget that it’s all about Him. Now go! Be EXTRA-ordinary in an ordinary world.

Read Ephesians 4

Resources: The Bible, NKJV

Friday, April 17, 2009

Devotional: Life's Intersections

“A man’s heart plans his way, But the LORD directs his steps.” – Proverbs 16:9

“O LORD, I know the way of man is not in himself; It is not in man who walks to direct his own steps.” – Jer. 10:23

“A man’s steps are of the LORD; How then can a man understand his own way?”
- Proverbs 20:24

I was driving down the road the other day and came to an intersection where I had to turn left. I was waiting behind several cars as I waited for my turn to make the left and noticed that the oncoming cars were very far off. As the cars were turning I noticed that, even though the oncoming cars were far off, each driver was hesitating and double-checking before turning. I started wondering, as I was eager to turn before the light changed, why the driver’s were double-checking and hesitating before they turned if the oncoming cars were so far away. Then God hit me with a realization.

He placed on my heart that we, people, often double-check and hesitate before going onto a path that God has made for us. God oftentimes opens a door for us, and we know that it is clear and open and from Him, yet for some reason, we hesitate and double-check to make sure it is clear to go. We second-guess His decision and the path He has set before us and we think, “Well, that looks clear, but I might have a better idea,” or, “Are you sure, God, I mean, everything looks clear, and You are in control, but what about (enter fear or question here)?” Sometimes He gives us a way that we faithfully go into but after time, we stray from it because we put our desires first, get tired of waiting on results, or we want things done quicker, we want shortcuts. We forget that “all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose” (Romans 8:28). We also forget that God knows “the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope” (Jeremiah 29:11).

Sometimes we are waiting on the Lord but we grow impatient and forget that everything is done in God’s time, not ours, and that time is nothing to God. As I continued driving I saw an airplane rising above the rising sun and I was reminded of the verse: “But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint” (Isaiah 40:31). If we wait on God, He will lift us up, He will give us the strength to endure the wait and the outcome will be greater than what we would have come up with ourselves.

Now, don’t get me wrong, we should always check an intersection (literal intersection) before crossing, but in the intersections of life we need to remember that God is the Crossing Guard and we are His. The Crossing Guard holds up the stop sign and the whistle to command attention. We are in the hands of an Awesome Creator who has an awesome plan for us. Yes, this plan may include being put through the fire and it may be scary but in the trials we face, we are being built up. The suffering we endure under Christ is not for no reason. In Christ it all has a purpose. I encourage you to fully put your trust in Him and instead of questioning God, when He leads you in a certain direction or down a certain path, I encourage and challenge you, and myself, to make the turns that God desires us to make, and to live the life He desires for you. There is nothing better than being in the will of God, and even though cars may be coming fast and hard from the other direction, God, our Crossing Guard, is in control.

Sometimes the paths we must go down are painful and sad, but God is with us every step of the way. Our foundation, the foundation of Jesus Christ is unshakeable, immovable. Psalm 9:10 says, “And those who know Your name will put their trust in You; For You, LORD, have not forsaken those who seek You.” God won’t leave us hanging in the middle of the intersection by ourselves especially when there’s oncoming traffic. He will never leave us or forsake us (Hebrews 13:5).

References: The Bible, NKJV;

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Marriage Series:Part 1: "The Foundation"

My boyfriend and I recently finished attending marital classes that were offered by our church. I personally recommend taking marital classes to anyone who is looking to get married someday and even to those who are already married. These classes offered insight into what God says about marriage through His Word. Over the next several posts I’d like to share with you what I learned in these classes…

This post (Part 1) is about setting a firm foundation in your marriage. The foundation of your marriage should be God. If anyone would know anything about marriage, it would be the Creator of marriage, God. He made marriage perfect; however, we ourselves are not perfect. We are not perfect people and we will not always make the wisest decisions, but we have God and His Word to guide us into, and through, what each of our roles in marriage is (that’s a future post) and how we should live our lives.

If we keep God in the center of our marriage, He will bless it. In keeping God as the Rock in which we stand our marriage we will be following His Word and living according to His will for our lives; there is no better place to be than in the will of God. He is immovable by any storms that may pound against the walls of your marriage. Knowing that God made marriage perfect, and knowing the storms will come, what better place is there to be than in the hands of the Creator and steady, unbending foundation of Jesus Christ? In Matthew 7:24-27, Jesus said, “Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock. But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall.”

If we keep God in the center of our relationship, He will bless and honor the marriage because in keeping Him at the center of it we will be following His will and His Word. We will be submitting to God’s authority and the authority of the Bible. Keeping God as first priority in our relationships means following what He says even if we don’t understand or even if we don’t necessarily want to. We need to seek God and His will for our lives through prayer and through His Word. The Bible is very clear about how God wants us to live our lives and how we should treat each other. God has a plan for each of our lives that is better than anything we could ever come up with. In submitting our lives to Him, our lives will be blessed with peace, understanding, and love.

The Bible is very clear that we should not be with an unbeliever in marriage.
2 Corinthians 6:11-15 says, “O Corinthians! We have spoken openly to you, our heart is wide open. You are not restricted by us, but you are restricted by your own affections. Now in return for the same (I speak as to children), you also be open. Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness? And what communion has light with darkness? And what accord has Christ with Belial? Or what part has a believer with an unbeliever?” In the old days, farmers would place a yoke on oxen or other animals in order to plow the land. Imagine placing and ox and a donkey in the same yoke together. The donkey and the ox are physically and temperamentally different, they wouldn’t work well together. I can tell you from personal experience that being with someone who hasn’t given their life to the Lord is really heart breaking and frustrating. Being with someone who doesn’t believe what you do can leave you lacking and can even bring you down spiritually, not to mention, you are more prone to fall away from your relationship with God because that person does not believe what you do or is not as stronger, or stronger, than you in your faith. It can also become a flirt to convert mission, or missionary dating, if you will. God doesn’t tell us not to do things in order to restrict us; He tells us these things because He loves us and wants what is best for us.

Having Jesus at the center of your relationship with benefit your relationship tremendously. Forgiveness is a big part of life, especially in marriages. In giving your life to Christ you are acknowledging that you are a sinner. Remembering that Jesus died for you and your spouse gives a whole new perspective to the marriage. We all have to remember that when we get married, we are marrying a sinner, just as we are a sinner.

When we get married, we are leaving our separate homes with our families to start a new one. The Bible says, “Unless the LORD builds the house, They labor in vain who build it; Unless the LORD guards the city, The watchman stays awake in vain” (Psalm 127:1). Having a home built on the love, understanding, and peace of Christ is completely different than building a home tumbling under the weight of the world that is falling apart all around us. The world offers us temporary escapes from the pressures we feel in everyday life. Through the world we may seek a peace that we hope will remove the uneasiness we feel in everyday life, but the uneasiness will still be there when we finish the bottle of wine or the television show. God offers a peace that will “guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:7). God gives a peace that the world cannot give us; He gives us peace in the midst of trials so that we might endure and be built up.

Now, some couples may be in the situation where one is a believer and the other is not. Because of this, some spouses ask, should I divorce my spouse? God hates divorce (Malachi 2:16).
The only reason for divorce to be permitted is if adultery is committed (Matthew 5:32). God tells us in His Word, “Wives, likewise, be submissive to your own husbands, that even if some do not obey the word, they, without a word, may be won by the conduct of their wives, when they observe your chaste conduct accompanied by fear” (1 Peter 3:1-2). We are to honor and respect each other and ultimately serve God. Wives, God calls us to respect and submit (we’ll get into that in a future post) to our husbands; live a life that honors God and your husband will see that change and Christ’s love in you. Husbands, the Word of God says, “Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself for her, that He might sanctify and cleanse her with the washing of water by the word, that He might present her to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she should be holy and without blemish” (Ephesians 5:25-27). Christ loved the church with a sacrificial and unconditional love.

1 Peter 2:4-7 says, “Coming to Him as to a living stone, rejected indeed by men, but chosen by God and precious, you also, as living stones, are being built up a spiritual house, a holy priesthood, to offer up spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. Therefore it is also contained in the Scripture, ‘Behold, I lay in Zion A chief cornerstone, elect, precious, And he who believes on Him will by no means be put to shame.’ Therefore, to you who believe, He is precious; but to those who are disobedient, ‘The stone which the builders rejected Has become the chief cornerstone…’” God wants what is best for us and He already has plans for us more awesome than we could ever come up with ourselves. So I urge you to seek Him in your marriage and place Him as the foundation and cornerstone of your relationship. In doing this, your marriage and lives will be blessed and honored and will be better and stronger than you could have imagined.

Consider this: "Marriage is not science or mathematics. It is a partnership, a ministry, and a sacred relationship ordained by God. Marriage takes work and work means that one will practice at their marriage. How many people do you think are still practicing at their marriage?"

Note: I have added my thoughts to the notes taken in class therefore the post may not directly resemble or reflect the curriculum in my church's marital class.

References: The Bible, NKJV; Calvary Chapel Kendall Marital Classes Notes

Sunday, March 29, 2009

The Romans' Road

I’d like to take you for a walk through “The Romans’ Road.” It is a simple walk through a series of verses that portray a picture of the Gospel in a nutshell. These verses explain the state of man and the Atonement of Christ.

Let’s start at Romans 3:10: “As it is written: ‘There is no one righteous, not even one;’” This verse explains that no one is good. Everyone is a sinner and is fallible. We have all done something wrong at one time or another.

The next stop is Romans 3:23: “for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,” We often compare ourselves to each other when the One we should be comparing ourselves to is God. Because He is sinless and perfect we will always fall short of His glory. So one may ask, “If we always fall short of God then what’s the point in trying to be like Him? How could we have a relationship with Him?” God created us to have fellowship with Him and to worship Him. He didn’t want a bunch of robots going around repeating “I love you” to Him. He wanted real love, a love that comes from the heart with sincerity. He already knows that we fail and fall; He knew you before you were born (Psalm 139:16). Because God is holy, perfect, and just, our sin separates us from Him. That’s why He sent His only Son to die for each of us, to pay the price for our sins, so that we could have a way to Him, and everlasting life (John 3:16).

And that leads us to our next stop: Romans 5:8: “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” God knew that man would fall. If He would’ve tried to stop Adam and Eve then they wouldn’t have had free will. Imagine someone loving you so much that they would give their life for you. God’s sacrificial love is what this verse is showing us. God came in the flesh, endured the same temptations we do, lived a holy and sinless life, and then suffered the most horrible death ever imaginable, all because of His love for you. Christ knew that many would reject Him, but He still died for them. My pastor often says, “It wasn’t nails that held up Jesus on the cross, it was His love for us.”

The next stop on The Romans’ Road is Romans 5:12: “Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned…” This verse alludes to the fall of man, when Adam and Eve sinned by disobeying God. Because men pass on the seed that brings offspring, and because Adam had fallen into sin, he passed the fall (sinful nature) on to his offspring, and because of procreation, sin has been passed on to all of man.

Romans 6:23 states: “For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Sin leads to separation from a holy God and leads to spiritual death. If you die separated from God this will lead to destruction and death for all eternity. Because God does not want anyone to be separated from Him (2 Peter 3:9), He sent His Son, Jesus, to pay the ultimate sacrifice and to give life to anyone who believes and trusts in Him (John 3:16).

God has given us all a choice. We can choose to accept His free gift of Salvation or not. Romans 10:9 says: “That if you confess with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” The word “saved” that this verse is mentioning means being saved from eternal separation from God; it is also about being saved from eternity in Hell. Hell is real: Matthew 10:28 says, “Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.” God gave us a way so that we would never be separated from Him, through believing (trusting) in His Son, Jesus Christ, as our only hope of salvation.

Jesus is the only way into heaven; Jesus said, “He who is not with me is against me, and he who does not gather with me, scatters” (Luke 11:23). And He also said, “Jesus answered, ‘I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me’” (John 14:6).

The final stop on The Romans’ Road is Romans 10:13: “for, ‘Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.’” Salvation is offered to everyone. It doesn’t matter your past or what you’ve done. God is ready to forgive and give life to those who believe. 1 John 1:9 says, “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” God knows your past and He has a great future planned for you. All you have to do is believe in Him, take Him at His word.

We are all sinners in need of a Savior. Some of you may be thinking, “I’m not a sinner! I’ve never murdered anyone or stolen anything!” Have you ever lied, cheated, done wrong to someone? If you have you’re a sinner. Sin separates us from God. In the Old Testament, sacrifices had to be made to cover over sins, but when Jesus came and died on the cross, He became the ultimate and perfect sacrifice. He paid the debt we couldn’t pay so that we wouldn’t have to. When has someone ever loved you that much? Jesus could have called the whole thing off, could have given in, but He didn’t. He endured the cross because of His love for you. If you think being a follower of Christ is about rules and regulations you’ve got it all wrong. God gave us the Bible so that we can know His will for our lives, and that we may live an abundant life (John 10:10). He wants only the best for us (Jeremiah 29:11). He also gave us the Bible so that we can understand His character, attributes, and His love for us. He died in your place; you were worth that much to Him.

References: Gideon's//Three Hundred//Tactical Guide; the Bible, New International Version (NIV)

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Walking Away

“Therefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and rest your hope fully upon the grace that is to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; as obedient children, not conforming yourselves to the former lusts, as in your ignorance; but as He who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, because it is written, ‘Be holy, for I am holy.’ And if you call on the Father, who without partiality judges according to each one’s work, conduct yourselves throughout the time of your stay here in fear; knowing that you were not redeemed with corruptible things, like silver or gold, from your aimless conduct received by tradition from your fathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot.”
– 1 Peter 1:13-19

Many times we find ourselves in places we don’t want to be in or with people we don’t need to be hanging out with. In those times we know we need to walk away but it can be hard. I recently went to the movies with my boyfriend and a group of friends to see the movie Watchmen. We discussed the movie afterwards and decided that we had just wasted three hours of our lives. The movie was blasphemous as it attempted to portray an image of God that was wrong and deceitful. It had nudity and detailed sex scenes. After the movie we each talked about how we wanted to get up but for some reason we never did. I felt uncomfortable throughout the whole movie and wanted to leave but the thoughts of how much the tickets cost, and the snacks, and what the others would think all popped into my mind. When we discussed how we felt after the movie we pointed out how we needed to be stronger as Christians. We are supposed to be in the world but not of the world (John 17:16).The discomfort we felt throughout the movie was the Holy Spirit telling us to get up and leave.

You may think that watching movies you shouldn’t be watching or listening to jokes you shouldn’t be listening to is not going to do anything to you, but it does. When you open your mind to these things you give the Devil a foot into the door of your mind. You can usually tell when you are doing something you’re not supposed to be doing if you start trying to reason with the Spirit. For example, you feel inside that something is wrong and you shouldn’t be listening to it or watching it. Then you start trying to reason, trying to justify your actions. You can also tell if what you’re doing is wrong when you read God’s Word, the Bible. The Bible is a blueprint of how God wants us to live our lives. He tells us things we shouldn’t do because He loves us and wants what’s best for us. God’s will for our lives is in His Word. He wants us to live righteously. Philippians 4:8 says, “Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.”

God wants us to have pure minds and hearts. If you find yourself doing something that would not please God, ask yourself, is it worth disappointing God? Ask yourself, what’s the least I can do to honor what Jesus did for me? And, yes, there are temptations out there, and, yes, we will fall. This doesn’t give us a right to sin. Jesus reminded the disciples in Matthew 26:41 that “The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” 1 Corinthians 10:13 reminds us that when we are tempted, God will always give us a way out. It’s hard to stand up to friends, or family who will make fun of us because we choose to honor God instead of pleasing the flesh, but it’s a comforting reminder to remember that God became a man and endured all the temptations that we have. Jesus Christ understands what we are going through and how hard it is to walk away from something that seems good but isn’t. He was tempted and endured and came out blameless (Hebrews 4:15). Through Christ we can do anything (Philippians 4:13), we can even get the strength to walk away from something we shouldn’t be around.

We should live to honor God. God has a plan for us better than anything we could ever come up with. Stick to His perfect will, seek Him in everything, read His Word, and talk to Him. He knows your heart and He will love you no matter what. Let’s not only honor and proclaim our love for Him with our mouths, but with our actions as well.

Read John 17

References: The Bible, NKJV

Friday, March 6, 2009

Draw Near to God

"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you…

- James 4:8

The Bible tells us that God will draw near to us if we draw near to Him (James 4:8) and it’s true. I have recently begun to understand the meaning of drawing near to God. When I was upset or frustrated, instead of turning on the T.V. or radio, I opened the Bible and sought after God. I wanted to know what God wanted me to do when something was going a certain way, I wanted Him to guide me and take control of the situation. God spoke to me through His Word. His Word truly is living and breathing. Hebrews 4:12 says, “For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.” God speaks to us through His Word and not only does His Word challenge us and give us knowledge but it gives us insight into who God is and how He works.

When you don’t feel like getting into God’s word is when you need to do it the most. When you are abstaining from something and are tempted to stray off that road you need to open the Word. His Word is His light for our paths (PSALM 119:105). It is “Salvation for everyone who believes” (Romans 1:16). God gave us direction and guidance in His Word. In the Bible we may also learn about His saving grace, through His Son, Jesus Christ. We can learn about the character of God. He is awesome and great and He loved you so much that He sent His only Son to die for you. God is big and powerful, but He does care about the things going on in your life, however insignificant you think they may be.

Prayer is another way we can draw nearer to God. Communication is a key factor for a relationship to be successful. Talking to God keeps the line of communication open and keeps your relationship with Him strong. You don’t have to use big words or “thee’s” and “thou’s” to talk to Him. God already knows your heart and He’s ready to listen to you anytime of day and no matter where you are. You can talk to God while your driving (eyes open, of course) or even while you’re standing in line to get food. I encourage you to keep your eyes on Him and your mind set on His will and purpose for your life, and you can do that through prayer and reading His Word. God is the Creator of the universe but He is also your friend and He loves you. If you read Psalms you can see how David talked to God. David was open and honest with God, he cried out to Him and longed for God to guide and speak to him. David would even pretty much tell God what he wanted Him to do but one thing David always did was acknowledge who God is.

Matthew 6:33 tells us to seek God first and then all the things we worry about will be added to you (according to God’s perfect will). I challenge you, whenever you get frustrated or have time to spare, open God’s Word and breathe in what He breathed out. God will see that you are seeking Him and He will honor that. Take the time to go into His Word. Draw near to Him. Seek Him with all your heart and He will draw near to you.

References: The Bible, NKJV

Monday, February 16, 2009

To the Daughters of The Most High God

Women of God,

I have been through numerous relationships where I thought I could finally feel complete. I thought some guy could make me feel like I was loved, important, beautiful, all that good stuff. But what I forgot was that I deserved something special. And so do you. You’re not just any girl looking for any type of guy. You are a beautiful daughter of God. Don’t you think your Daddy in heaven is looking out for you? Not with a shot gun and a “Don’t touch my daughter” look for all those guys that come knocking on your door. But instead, He has an “I love you so much that I gave up My life for you. Trust Me! It’s all in My time. I know what you need and deserve.” He created and molded you. Girls…listen! You are “fearfully and wonderfully made” (Psalm 139:14). He knows you better than anyone.

My mom used to tell me that God had someone special for me and if it was taking long it’s because He was building him into the man He wanted him to be. I would settle for guys that knew God but only so much that it became a flirt to convert mission. Several months ago I came to a realization and I finally came to a point where I had had enough. I told God that from that point on I would leave it in His hands; no more trying to do things my way. I knew that God wanted me to be with someone who feared Him, who lived in a way that honored Him. I realized that in order for God to bless me with the man of God I knew I deserved and that He wanted for me I had to be the woman of God that God wanted me to be. I had to strive to be that woman that God wanted me to be and that that man of God He had for me would need me to be. I knew that I couldn't do it alone though. I asked God for help. I asked for Him to help me heal from the brokenness from my past relationships and I asked Him to break me and mold me into what He saw I could be. I prayed that he would make me into a vessel for Him. I no longer wanted to be what I thought I should be, but instead I prayed that God would reshape me into what He wanted me to be.

God has only the best thoughts towards you (Psalm 139:17-18). A friend reminded me that God doesn’t always give you what you want, but He gives you what you need, and sometimes He gives you both what you want and what you need. God has reminded me of His faithfulness with this new relationship He has blessed me with. I never thought I could be with this awesome man of God, but God knew. A relationship with Christ at its core will be fruitful, blessed, and strong. So I urge you, Women of God, take hold of the One Who loves you most, Who has never failed you and never will. He knows what He’s doing, even if we don’t understand. It’s all in His time.

Read Psalm 139:1-18